For months and months, I have been an adoption situation page stalker. I would pull the situation page up several times a day knowing that it would look the same as it did the last time that I looked. Every time my cell phone rang, my heart skipped a beat. I would go to any lengths to find my phone and panic if I couldn't answer it when it rang. I was so afraid that I would miss "the call". Silly now that I think about it. But I was willing to hold onto hope at any lengths. There were days that I was so angry at God. Why would He put this desire in my heart and then make me wait for so long? There were times that I actually wondered if we were even meant to adopt. Maybe it wasn't a part of God's plan for our lives. I had days of little hope and high irritation. Brett and I actually discussed the possibilities that maybe we shouldn't continue waiting. Maybe we should pack up the nursery and go on with our lives. But we knew that a piece of our family was missing. So we continued to hold on.
Now as I watch my sweet angel sleeping, I can say SHE WAS WORTH THE WAIT! I look at her and understand why God took almost 2 years to bring her into our lives. She is a picture of absolute perfection. She is everything that we ever dreamed that she would be and so much more. Apparently, it takes almost 2 years for God to prepare your heart to parent an angel.
I must admit that I did go to the situation page today.... just to look. We are now on the PLACED section. Don't think I will need to ever look again.
