Our adoption placement fell through. We are dealing with it a lot better than the first time. We are back on the waiting list and hope for another match soon. What a test of faith this has been but we are holding strong and know that Ellison is out there somewhere. Through all this, our lives go on and we keep on smiling.

Dear Ellison,

I dreamt about you last night. In my dream, God was handing you to me. I actually saw your sweet face. You had dark hair and dark eyes and you were so tiny. I woke with tears in my eyes because I desperately want to hold you. Not in my dreams but really hold you. I guess for today, I will hold you in my heart sweet girl.

I love you,

Mommy

We are officially matched again! Our birth mother is due on June 1 but will probably deliver towards the end of May. Just in case you didn't know..... that's next month!! :) We are very excited but also nervous. I will keep you updated as things progress.

Happy Easter from our family to yours!

A friend sent this video to me a few weeks ago. This song desribes exactly how I am feeling. I am waiting but frustrated. Hopeful yet heartbroken. Trusting yet doubting. So many emotions rolled up in my heart.

It has been 4 weeks since my last post but unfortunately, I have nothing new to share. Tomorrow will be 9 months since starting this adoption. We hoped to have a baby by now but that is not God's plan for us. So, we wait......

"Dear God,

Please bring baby Ellison home soon. I love her already. Amen."

Mason - 6 years old