Two Months Old

For months and months, I have been an adoption situation page stalker. I would pull the situation page up several times a day knowing that it would look the same as it did the last time that I looked. Every time my cell phone rang, my heart skipped a beat. I would go to any lengths to find my phone and panic if I couldn't answer it when it rang. I was so afraid that I would miss "the call". Silly now that I think about it. But I was willing to hold onto hope at any lengths. There were days that I was so angry at God. Why would He put this desire in my heart and then make me wait for so long? There were times that I actually wondered if we were even meant to adopt. Maybe it wasn't a part of God's plan for our lives. I had days of little hope and high irritation. Brett and I actually discussed the possibilities that maybe we shouldn't continue waiting. Maybe we should pack up the nursery and go on with our lives. But we knew that a piece of our family was missing. So we continued to hold on.

Now as I watch my sweet angel sleeping, I can say SHE WAS WORTH THE WAIT! I look at her and understand why God took almost 2 years to bring her into our lives. She is a picture of absolute perfection. She is everything that we ever dreamed that she would be and so much more. Apparently, it takes almost 2 years for God to prepare your heart to parent an angel.

I must admit that I did go to the situation page today.... just to look. We are now on the PLACED section. Don't think I will need to ever look again.

Ellison Brook

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After months of waiting and praying, Ellison is here! We were matched and she was born with a span of 2 weeks. She is perfect and precious. She is everything that we could ever hope for. I can honestly say that she was worth the wait! God is good! I will write more about our journey another day. Gotta go love on Ellison!

Us

I'm not sure if I still have any followers on this blog. I am still here. We are still waiting for Ellison. Time has flown by and I can hardly believe that it will soon be 2 years since we decided to adopt. Things certainly haven't moved as quickly as we hoped. We still believe that God has a perfect child just for us out there somewhere. Right now, we wait. We have actually gotten really good at waiting. We are staying busy with work, Mason's baseball and life in general.

I just wanted to let anyone who might still follow my blog, that I am still here and we are still waiting.

We are home but did not bring home a baby. The birth parents changed their minds at the last minute. We had a great 2 week vacation in Chicago and have tons of wonderful memories. We are sad but hopeful.