Wednesday, February 11, 2009

"I lay my "whys?" before Your cross in worship kneeling, my mind beyond all hope, my heart beyond all feeling; and worshipping, realize that I in knowing You, don't need a "why?""
-Ruth Bell Graham
We got sad news yesterday. Our birth mother had her baby and changed her mind about the adoption. We are heartbroken but trusting God' s plan for our family. We are back on the waiting list and praying for a quick match.

Sunday, February 8, 2009

More than two years ago, I mentioned to Brett that I really would like to adopt a baby one day. He sort of laughed and said, "Yeah right." I was disappointed but I continued to pray about it. Every few months, we would talk about it again. I continued to pray. At one point, I asked God to take the desire to adopt away from me if we weren't meant to do it. The desire grew and I continued praying. I saw God begin to work on Brett's heart. I prayed even harder. Brett's heart opened and filled with the desire to adopt. We started this journey a long time ago but officially signed with Christian Adoption Consultants in July 2008. Since then, I have witnessed miracle after miracle. I have watched God bring people together and I have watched God open other hearts to the idea of adoption. Now, here we are....waiting for the phone to ring and I feel like these last three weeks have been the longest EVER. I have to remind myself every day that this sweet baby girl is God's child and He has a perfect plan for her life. He is knitting her together in her mother's womb and molding her into perfection. One corner of my heart is full of excitement. The other corner is full of nervousness and sadness. I remind myself that the desire to adopt didn't come from me.... it came from God. He simply planted the seed in my heart. I am relying on His perfect peace to keep me calm.